late night thoughts och en livsupdate

hej bloggen! just nu är klockan 00:56. jag gör min antropologiläxa och lyssnar på tallest man on earth. mycket har hänt sen sist, men jag orkar inte ta det just nu, men ni kan få denna text jag skrev för ett par dagar sen:
 
// it’s strange how sometimes you lose yourself among other things in life. one day you’re in your bed waiting for your dad to shout that it’s dinner time and suddenly you have a one way plane ticket in your hand, going 8300km away from what you consider

home.

home, a place so familiar but yet so far away — home, a place that i can no longer define.
home, that once used to be,
family
friends
a known environment
a feeling of
safeness.
comfort.

and suddenly home gets taken away from you
and suddenly home is
desideration eating you up from the inside
forgetting to eat
forgetting to sleep 

not being able to balance
your life
not being able to take care
of yourself

and you languish
and you suffer
and you are trying
trying
trying
trying
to find

home 

and you cry yourself to sleep.
insignificance.

i lost my path.

and in the morning
you rise after
four hours of sleep
surrounded by people who
say they feel the
same, but
do they? 

and you ask yourself

”why did i come here”
”what am i doing here”
”where do i belong”

and suddenly you realize
this is home.

among all these amazing people
gathered on this small campus
in the beautiful landscape of
montezuma 

where the sun rises
over the castle
every morning 

where cultures,
experiences,
thoughts,
feelings,

people.

come together
as one

where ideas are communicated
where dreams come to life
where knowledge gets a new meaning
where brother and sisterhood 

never let’s you down.

and

you laugh
you love
you live

and

you are constantly reminded of
why you came here
what you are doing here 

where you belong. 

this is

home.

 
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